January 3, 2010

Baam! I’m back, but well, probably for just a moment.

Posted in my universe at 3:11 pm by Gerald

Ok its been extremely long since i took a look at this blog and how cool can things get, its 2010! Well, tmr will be the start of my school and i’m not really excited bout it heh. So 2009 wasn’t a really wonderful year, but also and definately not an awful year.

I think the biggest impression on me is still spdb and needless to say, river regatta 2009 and SAVA sprints 09 was a blast. Well, i never really felt so good bout training hard in my entire life until dragonboating came and took me by storm. I start to realise the true meaning of ‘no pain, no gain’ and its the least significant moments that u put in the little effort, give that extra push or release that extra boost that gives you the results that you would probably have never imagined. Well, many tell me its stupid to carry on this cca, almost the whole of me agrees that it takes away my life, time and everything and its simply killing myself training in the hot sun like a dog 5 or 6 or even 7 times a week. But a little part of me realises that i actually enjoy it! Haha it sounds crazy, but i like the feeling of winning, i like the feeling of trying for the impossible, i like the feeling of finishing a day of training and telling myself that i had just reached a tiny milestone. Well, not that i would definately stay in this cca all the way, i would never rule out my chances of leaving since results do come into play, but as for now, i still don’t regret sticking to this team. We can win, its possible, i’ve seen it and i’m damned right sure i know it.

And about life, i realised that sometimes, i’m just too hasty with things. I keep telling myself that what is meant to be, meant to be. But then again, part of me wants to create for myself a chance to try. This is only when i make stupid mistakes. But is it worth trying? I don’t know. But what i’ve decided on, is that i guess i’ll just let the small and stupid things in my mind go, and just go with the flow. I think, trying so hard sometimes would lead to nothing and most of the times, misery.

Alright, i think its just better to study hard, train hard and just have fun. Better off getting myself mind-fucked over stupid stuff. Speaking of having fun, I’m really excited bout this year. This is the year for me man! 18 finally, not stupid 17, where i get stuck in the middle of 16 and 18 and i can’t do fuck. Its like you’re moving into another phase of life, where u learn to do more adult stuff like drinking and before u know it, you realise you can’t cos you’re fucking 17. Its really stupid man. August here i come.

Other than that, i think theres still more stuff to look forward to! Well, i do look forward to a new year as a senior in db and i do look forward to new possibilities in life! I mean, there are many things that happen and many things that surprises my every year although it might be awful and fucked up sometimes, but i won’t stop walking and moving on cos theres more that meets the eye;)

And so cheers to the new year! Hopefully, i can change to be better, i can train hard enough to be stronger and i can find new meanings to life. Of course, last but not least, keeping my friends close by and hopefully finding new friends!

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